Procrastinating PCT Hiker Full of Messy Feelings

So, this is the life of a terrible procrastinator. Instead of being all packed up and ready to go and relaxing as I wait for my start date, I am still getting my gear organized and ordering things I forgot and paying extra to have it overnighted to me. This is me, guys. This is the mess I am. I’m such a mess right now that I don’t let myself drive further than a mile because the last time that I did, I got into a minor car accident (just a scratch) and I honestly don’t even know—it could’ve been my fault. I’m so absent-minded and scatter-brained right now that I shouldn’t be behind the wheel.

I am constantly rifling through my mind to see if I need to remember something I meant to remember, if I need to order something or if I already did and it’s on its way, if I need to find something I lost, if I need to pack something or unpack something and leave it behind, etc. I am actually so proud of myself when I brush my teeth and shower and eat these days. I’ve been thirsty for hours but don’t want to get up and pour myself a cup of water. I hold my pee in all day because I don’t want to waste a minute that I could be planning, packing, thinking about my hike, and wondering if there’s anything else that I missed.

In addition, I postponed my start date to tomorrow morning instead of tonight. I am exhausted, sleep-deprived (slept in my car last night again), and tomorrow morningsounds easier and more logical for all of us—me, my desert-night-hiking partner, and my friend who’s driving us.

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This is a photo of me a few days ago with the mess I made in the living room as I sorted through (almost) enough food for 20 resupply packages and tested out my tent and clothes. I am so grateful to the kind, lovely people who helped me shop, who showed up to help me pack, who called resupply destinations for me to confirm, who offered to take me to the trailhead, who promised to meet me along the trail or send me care packages, etc. Trail angels and hikers aren’t the only beautiful generous souls out there. You’re all so giving and so good. Thank you!

Now I have to go figure out where I put my passport and try to see if everything fits in my pack. And eat. Yeah, that would be good. I aimed to bulk up a little before heading out but have, instead, been losing weight! And hydrate. That’s always smart. And pee. Ooh, a good, long pee sounds nice right about now. And hopefully, I can get some decent sleep tonight before hiking 20 miles in one day!

Tomorrow awaits! I’m beyond elated! It’s amazing and it’s crazy and it’s overwhelming and it’s going to be so great… I love this messy feeling I feel inside right now. 🙂

About elinatravels

I’m Elina Oliferovskiy, a Russian-born 26-year-old restless soul who’s never really found a place to dig her roots in deep ever since I moved to the United States in 1998. I’ve lived in a 39-foot RV with 8 people and a Chihuahua and road-tripped around approximately 38 states for 1.5 months. I’ve packed my car and headed north without a destination and ended up in Big Sur, CA and lived there for a bit. I recently moved to Bend, OR without ever having been here prior (simply went off of the recommendations of others). And I just came back from a trip to France, Luxembourg, England, and Ireland and have many fun stories to share. My alter-ego is Free Spirit (my trail name on the PCT) and I am an aspiring solo female Pacific Crest Trail thru-hiker, who’d hiked half of the trail in 3.5 months in 2016 and a did a one-month section hike in 2014. I started this blog to chronicle my attempt to get from Mexico to Canada on foot via the PCT. I have also hiked in England, Luxembourg, and hope to hike the Camino De Santiago (St. James’ Way) in Spain and the Te Araroa Trail in New Zealand, as well as many others. I love challenging myself physically, mentally, and spiritually, exploring and meeting new people who introduce me to their perspectives on life and allow me to be part of what they hold dearest to their hearts, pushing myself outside of my comfort zone in order to try exciting new things, and seeing, tasting, smelling, experiencing all of what this wonderful world I live in has to offer. This is why I travel. This is also why I move frequently. I’ve been moving somewhere new nearly every year, and I absolutely love my lifestyle. Now, I am deciding between teaching English in Vietnam, working remotely from New Zealand, or moving back to CA and woodcarving for a season. We will see what happens in the fall/winter of 2017. For now, I plan to stay in Bend, OR another few months and absorb all I can from this wonderful little (though rapidly growing) town. Feel free to follow along my journey by reading and commenting on my blog, adding me on Facebook (search for Elina Oliferovskiy and write me a message telling me you are a follower of my blog), or emailing me at elinatravels@mail.com.
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10 Responses to Procrastinating PCT Hiker Full of Messy Feelings

  1. Joe says:

    Can’t wait to follow your travels! Have a fantastic journey!

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  2. John Mahl says:

    Have a great hike. Just load it, zip it and start walking. Enjoy being outside for months. I will be sitting here in my work cubicle following along the entire way.

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  3. John Gilbert says:

    Would it be any fun if everything went as planned? Don’t sweat the little stuff. You enjoy your journey and keep on blogging.

    Liked by 1 person

  4. yogacatie says:

    Just know that you did forget things, and you don’t need them, you took things you’ll get rid of later, and you didn’t even think of things you will need, but you can get them later on down the trail. Looking forward to reading about your journey, it will be amazing! ~Comet, PCT2015

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  5. meg says:

    One of the hardest periods is the time leading up to and right before you start. In just a matter of a couple days you’ll find your groove, and relax into it. Happy start!

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